Wednesday, January 3, 2007

STUCK but BREAKING LOOSE

We are currently staying with my parents and brother. There are times when my parents presence are such a blessing, and there are times when we wish we are not staying together. It's the little things that bother me, lots of little things. Things like I don't like the way things are being put up, so many things in the house (belongings of 3 families in one double-storery terrace house... 2 washing machines, 3 refridgerators, 3 sets of sofas...), when my mom forgets to put away the keys (the keys hanging outside the house overnight!), different preference in TV programmes, my mom cooking dinner for everyone when we feel like eating out and so on and so forth. And there are also unspoken expectation which is the most dangerous. All these sound like no big deal but when they are piled up, they make you wanna scream! AARRGGGH!! My parents don't even impose their ways on us and we are already feeling uncomfortable, mind you...

That is why I mentioned in my previous post about the importance of having our own space. I would very much prefer to once in a while visit my folks rather than staying together. That way there won't be so many 'little things'. Why are you guys staying together in the first place? You may ask... well, it's complicated! Really! You still wanna know? OK, OK... Here we go...

When Danny and I got married we were staying in an apartment (we had our own space ;-D). Then not long after that my parents bought a house (the current one we are staying). When the house was ready nobody was staying here. So, mom suggested that we rent out our apartment (for extra income) and move in and stay in our current house. We agreed because when we first moved in, Danny, myself and Shane were the ones staying here
(we were still having our own space). We didn't intend to stay forever in my parents' house, so we bought ourselves a new townhouse about 2 years ago. Now after 4 years, everyone has moved in here, which we are not so comfortable with. Thank God our townhouse is almost ready, in fact it is already completed. Just that we are waiting for the developer to hand over the property. Another bizzare thing is... my parents bought the house next door!!! Not that they don't have a house! They have good intentions... they wanna stay near us so that they could help take care of the grandchildren... but staying next door! When will they realize that I am a woman now? That I can take care of myself and my own family? But I guess being neighbours are better that living under the same roof. There is pretty much nothing I can do now, just have to wait to move into our new premise... ooh, the waiting!

Mom, Dad, I really appreciate you guys a lot. Providing for us... Loving us, protecting us... but sometimes I feel you have to learn the art of letting go and letting God. After everything that you have done, you may think I am unappreciative and rebellious if you know about this post, about how I really feel but no, I would appreciate you guys more if I were given more space and liberty. I love you both dearly. If only you know...

God showed me this verse to make things easier for me...

"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble,
whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely,
whatever is admirable -- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy
-- think about such things."
Philippians 4:8